God, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the dffierence.
great stuff...
today is wednesday...went down to with york ccf to treasure house. it is a drop-in outreach that serves free dinner to those who can't afford a dinner. i don't know what was wrong wiht me today, but i had this naggin feeling that something just wasn't right today when nothing has gone wrong. it was really buggin me and bringin me down. i don't have a clue why that was. not like anythin special happened. i had a tutorial where i watched movie all class...big deal :P hmmm...so i really don't know...but maybe i just lost sight for a while of how big God really is.
at the treasure house, i really don't know what i was doing down there. my heart wasn't in the right place to serve. i really didn't feel like interacting wiht ppl the whole day. i had problem focusing on anything....
then it made sense to me. why i went through so much stupidness. why for the longest time i was on another planet with things in life...all to help one person. 2, 3 months of insane slaughter of the emotions and heart, all for the purpose that God wanted me to talk to that one person about relationship. and it helped her. so was it worth it? if what happened to me is really capable of helping her, then yes.
anyhoo back to treasure house...by the time we got there, they were in middle of singspiration. so we sang. i felt relieved. met some dude, loved music. he played stuff, i played stuff. sang. the whoel time i was down there, i did nothing but sing. and it felt great. it uplifted my spirits to know that no matter how dirt low i was, God still loves me and He still cares. and nothing and nobody can take that away. thx God.
great stuff...
today is wednesday...went down to with york ccf to treasure house. it is a drop-in outreach that serves free dinner to those who can't afford a dinner. i don't know what was wrong wiht me today, but i had this naggin feeling that something just wasn't right today when nothing has gone wrong. it was really buggin me and bringin me down. i don't have a clue why that was. not like anythin special happened. i had a tutorial where i watched movie all class...big deal :P hmmm...so i really don't know...but maybe i just lost sight for a while of how big God really is.
at the treasure house, i really don't know what i was doing down there. my heart wasn't in the right place to serve. i really didn't feel like interacting wiht ppl the whole day. i had problem focusing on anything....
then it made sense to me. why i went through so much stupidness. why for the longest time i was on another planet with things in life...all to help one person. 2, 3 months of insane slaughter of the emotions and heart, all for the purpose that God wanted me to talk to that one person about relationship. and it helped her. so was it worth it? if what happened to me is really capable of helping her, then yes.
anyhoo back to treasure house...by the time we got there, they were in middle of singspiration. so we sang. i felt relieved. met some dude, loved music. he played stuff, i played stuff. sang. the whoel time i was down there, i did nothing but sing. and it felt great. it uplifted my spirits to know that no matter how dirt low i was, God still loves me and He still cares. and nothing and nobody can take that away. thx God.
